I'm hoping the people here are more helpful than the parenting forum Housewives personals in Cassadaga FL I have been married for 7 years and my husband and I have 3 together. The problem is, I would rather be with a woman (and not just in bed parenting forum didn't seem to get that). I "experimented" with girls when I was younger (before I was married) and liked it. While I've been married, I've fantasized often about being with a woman, not just sexually but as a life partner. I my husband, I really do. We've known each other since we were and have shared so happy times and walked down dark roads together. I him but I haven't felt in with him in a very time (honestly I don't know if I ever truly was). It's not really considered okay to be in my family and I've always dreamed of being a wife and mother. Because of my upbringing and underexposure to non-traditional families (I grew up in a small town), it didn't even cross my mind NOT to a and start a family that way. My husband has worked so very hard for our family, he would do anything for us and he always tells me how lost he would be without me, that the and I are his world, what keeps him together (btw, I would never keep the from him never! He's a great husband and father, which is part of my internal conflict). I feel like I've done a good job making it work so far and I feel like I could continue that in order to not break our family apart, but I feel so guilty. While DH says I'm his everything, how is it fair to him that he's not mine? I don't want him to fall apart if I leave, but I feel like he deserves, that we BOTH deserve, to find that one, you know? I feel guilty and selfish keeping this to myself, but I would feel sooo guilty and selfish for breaking up our family.